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The first time I saw you, I was coming around the corner, aware that Jame’s brother would be visiting, and there you were in all you gangly skinny yet handsome half naked self. You stared by staying just a few days to get yourself cleaned up and stayed 12 years.

Overheard while eating a late breakfast at a local place. Three rough, worn out, used and put away wet people were bitching about everything. Why they hate the Haight. That’s where breakfast was. Why they hate looking for places to rent So many places don’t want drugs or alcohol or get mad if a mess is made. I guess they did not catch that they are the people no one wants to live with. How stupid it is to go to Alcatraz, Golden Gate Bridge, the beach or anything else this city is known for. I wonder why they were even here if they did not enjoy it. I may not know who I want to be but damn, that is who I don’t want to be!

General Weekly Love Horoscope Influences

This weekend gets off to a slow start with the Moon in responsible Capricorn on Friday and Saturday. The real fun begins on Sunday with an inquisitive Full Moon in Aquarius that opens our spirits to new kinds of people and activities. This is an unsentimental time that’s made for laughing and talking but is less than ideal for quiet cuddling and reminiscing about the past.

Seems like a year for change:

2 cats died

2 kittens aquired

4 roommates leaving to be married

3 (so far) roommates to replace them

1 ex boyfriend

Not replaced

This will be my new beginning to see what the world holds next.

I still cry. More then I want.

Was it satisfying to break me?

days are better, when I know there is a future.

Some days are worse,  when I run through all the futures we could of or did have.

I don’t miss you, you have been and will continue to be a demon.

I feel liberated. I blocked the ex. No more will my eyes gaze at a friends post and see him blathering on about some nonsense. No longer will I have to quiet the urge to click on the name and see if there are new friends added or new pics. He and his slut daughter are gone from my life forever.  I have a better understanding of why his wife had to cheat then attack. I am sure if I was around much longer I would have done the same.

He is gone, removed, blocked and I am liberated.

I will miss the dogs.

I believe I am over it, him the ex…..  Feeling much better. 1 week for every year we spoke,  not so bad.

I don’t believe I will be ever able to trust again. Once its broken it can never be repaired. Trust has no Tech Support.